shorter?

I wanted something different! So, I went for it! I went even shorter! I didn't know what to think at first. When she started cutting I was in shock at how much she was cutting! I mean, gosh I didn't have that much hair to begin with! But she cut a lot off! When I got home Ervin was in shock! I don't think he likes it very much. He said I looked like my mother.....and older! Thanks a lot honey! I wanted something easier. I hope this is easier. I need to get used to it, but I think I am gonna like it!

What do you think about my new cut?

Wow

I have not been a watcher of The Biggest Loser until now. This will be the first season I have ever watched and it is soooo motivating me! I just wanted to get up and work out! It gave me movivation to live that healthy lifestyle and want that change in my life. Just because I am pregnant does not mean that I can't do that now. I can still exercise and I can still eat healthy! So watch out gym...here I come!

food frenzy

Ok, just because I am pregnant does not mean that I am allowed to eat everything in sight! But, guess what I have been doing???? Eating everything in sight! I have got to get a grip! I only want to gain 20-25 pounds during the whole pregnancy not just in one month! Lately I have been craving Mexican food.......like taco bell and chipotle.......and yes I have had both of those this week! Fruits and veggies? What are fruits and veggies?? I don't think I have eaten fruit this whole week! Does lettuce and tomato count if it is on a burger? French fries? Do those count as veggies? I don't think so!

Just because I am pregnant does not give me a pass to eat junk! Pregnancy means I need to take care of myself and my body more than ever. I just don't know why I think I can eat whatever I want! It is a little ridiculous! So today, from now on , I will choose to eat healthier food and drink lots of water and cut down on caffeine, and quit drinking and smoking....just kidding about the last part! Idon't routinely drink and smoke! LOL.....

The nausea has not kicked in yet.....just small bouts here and there.......maybe I wont puke so much this time around!

Number 4 on the way....

Number 4? 4 what?!? 4 kids! Yup! I am preggy! I just found out on Friday that I am expecting....it is still pretty early in the game....but I am still excited....and I can't keep my mouth shut! According to my last menstrual period I am 6 weeks along!

On Friday, I told Erv that I was late about 13 days and he urges me to take a test.....I totally did not think it was going to be positive. I just thought my periods were screwy because I'm still breastfeeding......but I was wrong! The test was positive instantly. As soon as the pee hit the stick that line was blue. I took another test the next day just to be sure!

I am a little nervous.......these last two will be so close together....

I am happy......I did want to have another one....even if it was this soon!

I am excited! Boy or girl, I will be happy either way!

I am hopeful....for a great pregnancy!

I am praying for a healthy babe!

I am pregnant! Again! I can't believe it!

Torn

I am torn in this world of fat. I hate being fat....but I hate not being able to eat whatever the HECK I want! I hate what I look like in the mirror...but I hate not being able to put mayonnaise on my sandwich, or eat a Big Mac and french fries, or eat all the chips and salsa I want. I hate the way my clothes fit, but I also hate that I have to exercise! I hate the way my belly hangs over....but I hate sit ups and running.....I hate dieting!

I do so well in the beginning months..........and then it falls to pieces because I feel deprived. I am so sick of this yo-yo in my life. I was reading back on some of my journals years and years ago...and you know what it says? Every year my goal is to lose weight....Every year I am still about the same weight.....I just can't stand it! I am so sick of it! Why am I not ready to get rid of it all? Sometimes I wish I could just have liposuction and an abdominoplasty......that would fix me...: )

I need to pick a day to get back on track..........hopefully it will be soon. I need to get out of this funk.

11

"Look Mom! Look what I can do!"

"Are you still watching?"

"half way there"

"Like my diva pose?"

"one more step to the top!"

"I did it, MOM!"

"See what else I can do? I can stand up all by myself! I am almost walking...I took 5 steps the other day!"

My baby is 11 months old today!

SUCK

Yeah, I suck at losing weight.....I am off the wagon.....AGAIN! I get stressed out and then I eat and eat and eat! I am not even motivated to exercise.....I haven't been to the gym in a week! I should go right now while Allie is in school but I just don't have that drive. I weighed myself yesterday and had about a 1 pound gain.....I don't remember because I didn't write it down. I am just not motivated right now. I hope it comes back to me....MOTIVATION!!! WHERE THE HECK ARE YOU!???!??!?!?

Can anyone help me find it?