(sorry about the puctuation today, i only have one hand, gracie is in the other hand and maddie is on my lap.)
iv'e been really bad about posting lately...i cant seem to get enough hours in the day....too many things happening! jacob is playing football, allie started girl scouts, both started school, working full time and taking care of these 4 kids has me very busy!
anyway, i was doing laundry the other day and realized that every one of my shirts was black. every single one! i am hiding behind this color... hiding my fat rolls, hiding my emotion...hiding who i am. i am so tired of hiding. i have noticed through the years that i have become more introverted...my husband says i am snobby....i am not snobby at all....i have become this way because i am embarrassed.....embarrassed of how big i am. ughhhh! it is not a good feeling. hopefully one day i will become who i want to be. i need to believe in myself again...so...with all that i have on my plate, i add another...finding myself.
I'm looking around for me too, Wendy!! You have so much to handle right now. Make sure you find time for you too. Even 15 minutes of refreshing alone time. Is it possible for Moms? We can dream and bribe hubbies maybe. LOL.
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