Guess who's crawling!

Yup! Maddie is a crawler. She started crawling last week and has been a movin' and a shakin' ever since. She went from no crawling to expert crawler in one day. She also pulls herself up to standing position. Every morning when she wakes up she greets me standing in her crib YELLING! She is so funny. The happiest baby on the block. We also dig her pig tails! Here are a few pics of her!

Independence Day

It is the 4th of July! I am so proud to live in such a great nation. We saw fireworks last night and it really moved me. I felt so lucky. Thank you to all the troops who continue to fight for our country....and to all the veterans too. We are free! Let's celebrate!

still struggling!

My day always starts off with good intentions.....but as the day wears on I start to falter. This should be easy for me considering I have at least 30 points a day to eat. 30 points! That is a lot of points. I am consistently going over 30 points. I am still exercising.....however my exercising has not been as hard. I need to start going back to classes. I haven't been to K box class in a couple of weeks. I have been running and on the elliptical and riding my bike. I am making an effort to stay active. I weighed myself today again and I gained. I know I should not have stepped on the scale since I just weighed myself on Wed....but I just wanted to see. I am hoping that peek will help me to stay in control during this holiday weekend!

what is weight watchers?

I am not doing so hot with this whole weight loss thing. The whole month of June was a bust. I don't know why I am in such a funk. Lately I just have been more tired and hungry all of the time and I want to eat everything in sight. I have been going to Taco Bell like crazy.....I have been there more this month than in the last 2 years! I feel like I am out of control. My goal this summer was to lose 20 pounds.....that is now out of the question. Then I thought........well maybe I should just try to maintain.....I am always either gaining or losing......never maintaining....WHY is that? I weighed myself when I woke up and saw that I was about the same weight. So that is good. But where did all of my excitement and will power go?

I was afraid of this phase in my weight loss journey.....this is the part where I lose 25 pounds.......I start feeling better.......I am actually looking better.....people comment on how great I look......I get more confident.......I feel happy...............and then I fall off the wagon! I start slacking on eating the right points......I start giving in to cravings........I start getting stressed out over food......and then I just stop the program all together. I have done this several times in the last few years. I don't want it to happen again! So TOMORROW!!!! I am starting a new week.......I am going to get back on track. I refuse to lose this battle! Wish me luck!!!!

Another one in the hospital

So, now my dad is in the hospital too! He had a colonoscopy last week and ever since he has had some really bad abdominal pains. He went to the ER today and they also admitted him. So, at this moment, both of my parents are in the hospital and my father in law is in the hospital.

My mom is stable, doing well. She is going to have an EGD done tomorrow to find out where the bleeding is coming from. She is being transfused with platelets before the procedure so that her risk of bleeding is decreased since her platelets are so low.

Ervin's dad is much better today. He is off the ventilator and is awake and alert. He may go home in a couple of days.

My dad is going to have more tests done tomorrow. The doctors don't know why he is having all that pain.

They are all at 3 different hospitals too. I feel like I have been in a hospital all day today!

No weigh in this week

So, this week started out pretty good, then the weekend was a bust. I have been overeating and I don't know why! It is driving me crazy. I have come too far to be going back to fat! UGHHH!

So, yesterday was one of the worst days. I just kept eating and eating.....I think I ate like a whole box of cereal! There is some drama going on though which I think may be the culprit for yesterday. My FIL is in the ICU on a ventilator due to COPD. His lungs were full of fluid and he couldn't breathe. My mother in law said by the time they got to the hospital he was blue and unresponsive....they panicked and didn't call 911, they drove to the hospital....it is good they only live like 10 mins away. Then, my mom goes to the emergency room and is admitted to the ICU for a GI bleed. She had been feeling weak and dizzy and was having black stools for 3 days. She was really pale also. Her hemoglobin was 7 and she was transfused with 2 units of blood. All of this in one day! I don't know what the heck is going on with our parents! I didn't realize how much I depend on food for emotional support and stress. I really need to work on that.

Anyway, I didn't want to weigh in this week because I just couldn't face the music of what I had done this past week. I am going to start anew this week....are you all tired of me saying that? At least I haven't totally given up right? : )

Crazy Eight

Maddie turned 8 months old yesterday. She is growing like a weed. She has learned how to scream and squeal this month. Any time she wants our attention, she just screams...not cries..... just screams.....it is kind of cute right now....I don't know how long it will be cute.....but cute for now. Her hair is starting to get into her eyes so we have started the Pebbles look....I think it is cute...Jacob and Allie had their yearly check ups at the pediatrician. I am happy to announce that they are normal. Allie got 4 shots and she didn't even cry. She is a strong girl. The nurse was really nice and Allie said she wanted to be strong for the nurse and for me! She weighs 42.6 lbs. and is 43 in. She is in the 50th percentile for both height and weight. Jacob weighs 69.8 pounds and is 51 in. He is in the 90th percentile in both. The doctor says he is pretty big for his age and is good and solid. He lost a front tooth this month too. He is talking a little funny now and I think he looks adorable.