Momcation

In less than 24 hours I will be headed to Miami, then going here :

on a

I am beyond ecstatic! I will be leaving my kiddies and hubby at home and I will be on my own...meeting one of my best friends there. I already have some mommy guilt...but hopefully a few drinks with some rum in it will help me forget! I have had a rough summer.....so I am really looking forward to something fun and adventurous. I am so grateful to have a partner to stay home with my babies. He (husband) is very supportive.....I have to say...if the roles were reversed I think I would be so jealous that I wouldn't allow it! ha ha....Thank you God for allowing me to go on this trip. We scored a really great price...only $169 dollars for the cruise. We are going to have a blast. I will take a ton of pics...but probably won't be able to post them until I get a new laptop.... that will be the end of October! That is why my posts have been scarce.....I need a new laptop bad! But, I promise! I will post them some day!

First day of school

....well actually these pics were taken on the second day of school. I missed the first day because I had to work. I hate missing milestones like these! Anyway, we pretended that this was our first day. Allie wanted to pick out her own clothes. After arguing...I mean discussing what matches and what does not.....I decided to just give up and let her pick out whatever she wanted. At least she brushed her hair and brushed her teeth. That in itself is an accomplishment! She has on her new pretty converse shoes that she picked out at Target. Love that store. I swear they look too big on her. She says they fit fine. But she kind of reminded me of Ronald McDonald. But, she is still beautiful no matter what.

Allie with her friends, Makayla and Cheyenne

It took several times to wake up Jacob. He didn't go to bed until late last night......like almost 11 pm! I tried to get him to bed earlier starting at 9 but he just couldn't/wouldn't fall asleep. It will take some time to get him back into a routine. Yeah ,he is holding a check for lunch money. Man, lunch prices went up this year. I am still figuring out how I am going to pay for school fees! I guess I better pick up some extra hours at work! I am happy to announce that our school district is in the "Excellent with distinction" rating. Which I am surprised about because we can't pass a school levy around here. I am content to know that the kids are getting a good education. The school district I graduated from is on academic watch. Ouch! Makes a lot of sense if you think about it! ha ha....

I was so not ready for school to start. I loved having all the kids home...and waking up whenever we wanted ...no schedule to follow....but now that it has started....It sure is quiet around here...I mean...... I realize that maybe it will be good for us to get into more of a routine. I am not looking forward to homework....the deadly trio (Jacob, Mommy, and Homework) aahhh! But, I am looking forward to a wonderful new year.

Jacob

Gym

The Gym is good. I don't know why I resist to go so much. When I go, I feel wonderful. I get a break from my well disciplined, well behaved children and I finally get some ME time. So yeah, I don't know why I try my hardest to avoid the place. I have to get moving. I have been a sloth for weeks...months....I make excuses that I don't have the time....I gotta make the time. Period.

I got on the treadmill with the goal of just moving...and this thought got me through:




I ended up wogging 3 miles today. I think that is pretty awesome. I feel good.

Sisterly Love

My heart feels happy whenever I see these two play together. Maddie is a wonderful big sister.

stress

well....the stress has finally caught up with me.....

i am tired...

i cant say much...please send positive thoughts and prayers my way.

i need it.

The Fathers in my life

I have been an extremely lucky girl.....to have a great husband and a great dad. Thank you for everything you both have done for me!

Ervin, I sometimes take you for granted and I am sorry....today, I thank you for all of your hard work and dedication to our family. This week for example, I don't know what I would have done without you. You have taken such great care of me this week while I recover from surgery... and you also have taken great care of the kids. I love you!

Dad, you are the most amazing person I know.
Thank you for being the best dad there is. You have always been there for me whenever I needed you. You taught me how to be a good person.
I am happy to say that dad is out of the ICU and is stable. Thank God...

failure!

So I finally weighed myself. I have been avoiding the scale for weeks....I finally just sucked it up and stepped on. NOT GOOD. I am back to my January weight. Oh..My...GoD...I don't know why I do this. I feel like a failure.

Good news is...I am having surgery next week. I am getting my tonsils out. My throat will be sore....I won't be able to swallow without pain...I will definitely lose weight.

Last night I took a long hour walk....and today... I will do it again. Started the day off good with a mushroom egg white scramble.

I know how to lose weight. Something is not letting me... I am keeping myself from this. And now....it is not all about how I look...which....I am hating the way I look and feel right now.....but I need to lose weight for my health....I need to be healthy!

My dad is in the hospital right now with pancreatitis. He is not looking too good. He is in the ICU..with an NG tube, 2 IV's, heart monitors, a foley catheter, a rectal tube, dilaudid PCA. He is wheezing needing breathing treatments...and is very swollen. I almost didn't recognize him when I saw him yesterday. He has diabetes and kidney disease. I was reading on the internet last night...the prognosis doesn't sound too good when you add in the kidney disease. I am just hoping that he will pull through this. My dad is one of the strongest people I know. It just hurts to see him in that hospital bed...looking so helpless and in pain.

I use food to cope. Not good.

If you are the praying type...Please pray for my Dad.....